Two days until I finally close this chapter of my life. Here are some things that I have reflected upon in the last few days. First and foremost, I thank God wholeheartedly for all that has happened to me in the past few months!! I am thankful he gave someone else the strength to do what I knew in my heart needed to be done, but did not have the strength nor the courage to do so myself. I thank him for letting me experience joy once again! Joy in finding myself. Joy in loving myself. Joy in being myself.
Up til today, there was eager anticipation about all this finally being OVER with! I have been treating this situation like a book that I am reading. The story is finished and the plot wrapped up... what the final pages hold are needless and insignificant loose ends. I just could not wait to finish that last page so I can throw this book into the bin and it never see the light of day again - and to begin reading a new, more exciting book, to be perfectly honest. But in those quiet moments of self discovery... I realize that when this is all over, and the final page read - slowly, I will be closing the cover, hugging it to my heart- taking a moment to remember and relish all the ups and downs of the story, and then lovingly place it onto my bookshelf to be revisited in the future.
Joys and sorrows - laughter and tears - those pages made me who I am today, and I want there to be nothing but love and acceptance when I look back on all this. Regrets will do me no good- but the lessons that I have taken from these experiences will. Below this post is the daily devotional for August 2, 2011. Amazing how God speaks to us!
God knows my heart - I pray that I learn to listen and hear him - AMEN!
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