Two days until I finally close this chapter of my life. Here are some things that I have reflected upon in the last few days. First and foremost, I thank God wholeheartedly for all that has happened to me in the past few months!! I am thankful he gave someone else the strength to do what I knew in my heart needed to be done, but did not have the strength nor the courage to do so myself. I thank him for letting me experience joy once again! Joy in finding myself. Joy in loving myself. Joy in being myself.
Up til today, there was eager anticipation about all this finally being OVER with! I have been treating this situation like a book that I am reading. The story is finished and the plot wrapped up... what the final pages hold are needless and insignificant loose ends. I just could not wait to finish that last page so I can throw this book into the bin and it never see the light of day again - and to begin reading a new, more exciting book, to be perfectly honest. But in those quiet moments of self discovery... I realize that when this is all over, and the final page read - slowly, I will be closing the cover, hugging it to my heart- taking a moment to remember and relish all the ups and downs of the story, and then lovingly place it onto my bookshelf to be revisited in the future.
Joys and sorrows - laughter and tears - those pages made me who I am today, and I want there to be nothing but love and acceptance when I look back on all this. Regrets will do me no good- but the lessons that I have taken from these experiences will. Below this post is the daily devotional for August 2, 2011. Amazing how God speaks to us!
God knows my heart - I pray that I learn to listen and hear him - AMEN!
Random thoughts, events, and culinary crushes that happen to cross my path
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Daily Devotional
Aug
02
201In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world —John 16:33\
The typical view of the Christian life is that it means being delivered from all adversity. But it actually means being delivered in adversity, which is something very different. “He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. No evil shall befall you, nor shall any plague come near your dwelling . . .” (Psalm 91:1,10)— the place where you are at one with God.
If you are a child of God, you will certainly encounter adversities, but Jesus says you should not be surprised when they come. “In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” He is saying, “There is nothing for you to fear.” The same people who refused to talk about their adversities before they were saved often complain and worry after being born again because they have the wrong idea of what it means to live the life of a saint.
God does not give us overcoming life— He gives us life as we overcome. The strain of life is what builds our strength. If there is no strain, there will be no strength. Are you asking God to give you life, liberty, and joy? He cannot, unless you are willing to accept the strain. And once you face the strain, you will immediately get the strength. Overcome your own timidity and take the first step. Then God will give you nourishment— “To him who overcomes I will give to eat from the tree of life . . .” (Revelation 2:7). If you completely give of yourself physically, you become exhausted. But when you give of yourself spiritually, you get more strength. God never gives us strength for tomorrow, or for the next hour, but only for the strain of the moment. Our temptation is to face adversities from the standpoint of our own common sense. But a saint can “be of good cheer” even when seemingly defeated by adversities, because victory is absurdly impossible to everyone, except God.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Thankful for the little things.
I am learning to appreciate the little things in life.
1. The one and only person getting my kisses happens to be the most amazing human being - and DAMN cute!
2. Awesome friends who tell me the truth and talk sense into me.
3. Butterflies in my stomach and little heart flutters (these have been missing from my life for so long, I'd forgotten how great they are).
4. My new Sonicare toothbrush!! Judge me if you want, I don't care! : D
5. A job where I get to meet new people and smile and talk all day.
6. No rent. No childcare payments. No car payments.
This is only temporary, it won't last forever... counting my blessings and learning to be patient.
1. The one and only person getting my kisses happens to be the most amazing human being - and DAMN cute!
2. Awesome friends who tell me the truth and talk sense into me.
3. Butterflies in my stomach and little heart flutters (these have been missing from my life for so long, I'd forgotten how great they are).
4. My new Sonicare toothbrush!! Judge me if you want, I don't care! : D
5. A job where I get to meet new people and smile and talk all day.
6. No rent. No childcare payments. No car payments.
This is only temporary, it won't last forever... counting my blessings and learning to be patient.
Lovely!
So I am seriously looking forward to moving out, unfortunately, all I can really afford is a place with one bedroom. BUT if I manage to snag a place with a HUGE living room, I plan on turning it into something similar to the above picture. The one bedroom would go to Cici of course. I love the how open, clean, uncluttered, yet comfy it looks!! Not a fan of the rug, and I would probably paint the walls a Tiffany blue or a minty green. Of course there will be yellow and flowers everywhere, but overall, I like the room's aesthetic. This bed is ABSOLUTELY LOVELY!!!!!! I will hunt it down, and it will be mine!
Friday, July 29, 2011
New Toothbrush!!
After months of debating, instead of spending $50 on whitening strips, I decided to shell out an extra $30 and upgraded to a Sonicare toothbrush. This is what the model I purchased looks like in and out of the box. Scroll down for review...
I <3 it!!! My teeth feel SUPER clean! Don't get me wrong, the Oral-B did a well enough job, but I really felt like I had to brush forever (about 4 minutes on average)! The Sonicare was quick, and here's the bonus.. QUIET. After brushing, I rinsed with the Listerine Total Care (which normally burns pretty badly) and it wasn't unpleasant - just a slight tingle. SOOOOOO... for those of you on the fence about purchasing one, and wondering if it's worth the money, I say YES!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
3 weeks and counting
I'm not 100% sure if this is even possible... but I'm thinking that I'm starting to get a case of cabin fever. Work then home has never bothered me, but it's been proving to be a problem recently. I hate being under anyone's thumb, even just a little bit. Anyone who feels the need to send some love my way, you know where I work and where I am living. Friendly faces are always welcomed, and I'll be honest, kinda proving to be a necessity at this juncture.
Also, I think I am capable of driving man to drinking - and that notion was seconded today by a co-worker who has only known me for about 2 weeks (due to the fact that I seem the type to take shit from no one)! LMAO! Oh how far I've come.
On an up note, I am slowly but surely becoming a runner! YAY!! Psyched for the 5K in August!!
Wizard, thanks for the iPod! It's been a LIFE SAVER (literally @ times)!!!!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Going Out
It's official. I think I really am too old for the bar/nightclub scene. It was nice seeing all my girlfriends, but I am very much over paying for overpriced drinks and going to places that are too loud for me to carry a conversation. I will be ruining my eardrums via my iPod from now on.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Irked
Went to the mall today with a friend to help her check out some bareMinerals stuff. I've been a bareMinerals user since 2004, and I really do LOVE their products- so I was pretty excited about my friend trying it out. The shop was packed. My friend ended up having to schedule an appointment just to have them match her skin tone. Let me just say that when I purchased my bareMinerals starter kit 7 years ago, the starter kit came in Light, Medium, and Dark - I purchased the Medium which only came with 2 different foundations and one matched my skin tone perfectly. This saleswoman was seriously into her job as a make-up consultant, and didn't think 10 minutes was a sufficient time span in order to match my friend to her "true color". I get it; the boutique just opened, most people who come through are not familiar with your products... but bareMinerals have been around for YEARS ladies!! Get over yourselves! 10 minutes is PLENTY of time to match someone to their shade. If you don't want to take the time, Sephora is just down the way and they have the time.
Not sure why this irked me so much - perhaps I'm Pre PMSing... but UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not sure why this irked me so much - perhaps I'm Pre PMSing... but UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Waiting to close the chapter -still!
This matter is dragging on longer than necessary due to an all around FAIL on behalf of the staff. The new, and let's just save the trouble of solidifying something that they might manage to screw up again, "tentative" date is now August 2, 2011. For any of you that were holding your breathe like me, let's just stop cause we might suffocate to death at this rate!
Shhheck it out!!
If you're like me, and enjoys reading and <3 books - but when the time comes to find a new read, you teeter on the brink of a nervous breakdown as the rack of books stares you in the face... this website might very well save your sanity.
http://www.goodreads.com/
Check it out! You can rate books you've already read, read reviews and synopsis of books, and even make a list of books you want to read in the future. My "gift" to you... ENJOY! :)
http://www.goodreads.com/
Check it out! You can rate books you've already read, read reviews and synopsis of books, and even make a list of books you want to read in the future. My "gift" to you... ENJOY! :)
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Random thought of the day
I was just thinking... asinine is probably one of my favorite words. When saying it, you sound literate, but it's also fun because it sounds like a bad word!! Has this crossed anyone else's minds before?
PS.. if you're like me and had no clue what asinine even meant until recently, here's the definition.
Definition of ASININE
1
: extremely or utterly foolish <an asinine excuse>
2
: of, relating to, or resembling an ass
— as·i·nine·ly adverb
— as·i·nin·i·ty noun
Examples of ASININE
- <it was asinine to run into the street like that>
- … geniuses like Brando strike self and material together in a way that sets off some incomparable spark, radiating so much charisma that they get away with choices that would seem asinine from anyone else. —Jeremy McCarter,New York Times Book Review, 4 Jan. 2009
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Getting Settled and Catching Up
The last few days have been CRAZY! Between unpacking, catching up, and hanging out, I am ready to crash by 9! ONE more box to go, and it was from the file cabinet, so technically, we are moved in and settled! Got a new haircut, which looks amazing, and continued to do so until I walked outside into the rain and humidity.
Missing recently acquired and departed with friends- but having a fantastic time getting reacquainted with old friends and family... and it couldn't have come any sooner! Pictures to come when I get everything situated. Tomorrow I am meeting with Cinders and her family for drinks and a good time.
Not really sure why I thought that we were a unit and without the other part I was only a half. It's nice to be reminded that I am a whole... just me and no one else. :D
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY EVERYONE!! There's a double meaning in it for me this year.
Missing recently acquired and departed with friends- but having a fantastic time getting reacquainted with old friends and family... and it couldn't have come any sooner! Pictures to come when I get everything situated. Tomorrow I am meeting with Cinders and her family for drinks and a good time.
Not really sure why I thought that we were a unit and without the other part I was only a half. It's nice to be reminded that I am a whole... just me and no one else. :D
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY EVERYONE!! There's a double meaning in it for me this year.
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